Wow! I haven’t blogged in quite a while… time to start it up again…
As I ponder this Valentine’s Day, I have quite a few thoughts going through my head.
Apparently my brother seems to think I’m way anti romance, or love. He gave me a book for my birthday titled “The UnValentine” by Sam Beeson. It is a very cute book and he said it reminded him of me.
I can see his point of view on this. I seem to balk at romantic comedies. I think people who have to declare their sappy puppy love on face book and other places should find something more constructive to do with their time, and although I’ve had relationships that have been fun, I’ve never gotten myself too attached.
But does that mean I don’t want romance or feel love? I’ve been watching quite a bit of “Glee” lately. I love the music and it is so over the top cheesy that I can stand it. I like Jane Lynch’s character Sue Sylvester. She is so calloused and hard, but underneath she really is soft. Is this how I come across to my family and those I love now, and have loved in the past? I’ve been through my share of heartbreak; I just don’t let the world know. Is that cold? Maybe. Maybe not. I just don’t see a point in letting others know I’m miserable. I’d rather just come across as a happy carefree person. If you piss me off, I’m not going to let you know about it. I’ll find something else to focus on, something else to care about, and when that wound heals you won’t even know it existed. Unless I really care about you, then you'll know... ask my family.
I do want romance and love, as two of my personal heros can attest – I helped them out with Valentines this year. I loved helping and giving ideas that sometime in the future I can use, but they can test drive and give me feed back on. This year I did send a card (or two).
I do want romance and love, as two of my personal heros can attest – I helped them out with Valentines this year. I loved helping and giving ideas that sometime in the future I can use, but they can test drive and give me feed back on. This year I did send a card (or two).
One of these people told me I’m a care giver and that that is why I’m able to help out with the ideas they needed. I needed to hear that, especially when I start feeling like people see me as a cold un romantic anti valentine person.
And just because I feel like this right now...
Doesn’t mean that I don’t want this later….
or this 
